Two and a half weeks ago I had just picked my sister in law up from the airport. The first several cases of COVID-19 had just barely been popping up across the US, mostly in northern California and Washington. We went straight from the airport to pick up our 15 seater van that we had rented. Myself, my 4 kids, my sister in law, mother in law, my nanny and her 2 kids were all going to drive down to Arizona to visit my grandpa and then straight on over to Disneyland for spring break – as myself and my kids do every single year. This year in particular, my husband kept nagging me because COVID-19 had slowly started popping up, and the media was hyping it up. I’ll be honest, I didn’t take it very seriously. I spoke to my mother in law who is extremely at risk due to her cancer and I left the ball in her court. She, at the time, felt safe with continuing with our plans. I don’t think any of us really took it seriously at that time. We just said the same thing everyone else was saying, we would wash our hands and be careful.
Two and a half weeks ago, just 2 hours after picking up our rental van, Disney announced their closure. I was devastated. I was angry. I thought that they were taking this too far. The flu kills more people every year. I live with a 7 year old who is also high risk and at that time, I selfishly didn’t think that this was necessary. Afterall – Disney had never closed before except for MAYBE a couple days here and there for a few events. But then again, they had never closed before like this – so could it really be THAT serious?! The following couple days things started to progress. The shelves were being cleared at the grocery stores, cases were doubling by the day. Schools were announcing closures, other states were announcing lockdowns. It started to get serious & my mind set quickly shifted. If this is as bad as they say it is, I need to get my butt into gear because I have a child who is at risk and I need to be her advocate. There are people I hold incredible near and dear to my heart that are at risk and so I needed to be an example. So that’s just what happened. How can I expect the change if I am not part of it. I see so many people saying “Fuck the rules” and “I’m in America, I’m FREE to do WHAT I WANT.” People complaining about their freedoms being taken away and I’m blown away at the ignorance at so many people. We aren’t having our freedoms stripped away from us. Our government, and our president whether you like them or not, are trying to save lives. . . They are trying to save YOUR life.
Shortly after “shit hit the fan”, my sister and law went on a big grocery shopping trip & used the money that was suppose to go to Disney, for groceries. We loaded up two shopping carts full of the necessities, (I’m usually a ‘order groceries the day I need them’ type of person). But we decided to shop for a couple weeks so that we could start taking seriously the recommended social distancing. Since then we have left the house only a handful of times. I’ve had to leave because Addie was diagnosed with strep (she was actually showing signs of COVID-19 but tested positive for strep) and then ended up with a MRSA infection in her face, so over the course of a week, we were at the hospital 4 times. We otherwise have not left the house. It’s lonely and it’s exhausting sometimes. I’m thankful that during these times I do have my sister because I otherwise may have eaten my kids by now.
Two and a half weeks ago wasn’t that long ago – during any normal time in life, two and a half weeks, 18 days just flies by and I find myself asking where did time go, but these last 18 days has seemed like an eternity. This generation has never had to deal with something to this magnitude – we have been able to skate by in life on luck and greed to be honest. We have all taken advantage of the things we had.
Two and a half weeks ago I was waking up at 6am with the kids, getting them ready for school. I would drop them off, go to work and then look forward to getting to pick them up and hear all about their day and the things they had learned. Two and a half weeks ago I was trying to find time, balancing cleaning, cooking and taking kids to sports. I enjoyed sports. I enjoyed sitting and watching as the kids did something they loved. I was tired and life was chaotic. I frequently found myself saying I just needed a vacation because life was overwhelming and there was never enough time in the day.
Normalcy these days is sleeping in until 10 or 11am, coloring, binge watching tv shows & movies, baking and lounging all day on the couch. Sounds amazing doesn’t it? And it really is. I’m getting all the relaxation I swear I needed before, but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss life before. The chaos, creating moments in society with my family AND friends. Sitting on the couch, having lunch with my best friend who I was so blessed to work with daily, talking about our dreams and aspirations for our businesses and life is one of the things I miss the most about my days, I need that type of inspiration and positivity.
I took advantage of that chaos and now I’d give anything to have it back because there were so many moments I don’t get to live with anymore.
How crazy it is that life has changed so much in the last 18 days.
This morning I woke up to emails from the teacher’s providing lesson plans. I woke up to my daughter’s dance instructors providing information on ZOOM classes. I woke up to youtube videos from my son’s Tae Kwon Do master giving us lessons. I almost feel like life is becoming a little more chaotic – even though it’s not – for the simple fact that I am now taking on the responsibility of all the wonderful teacher’s my kiddos have been blessed with. I’m not good at being a teacher. I’m good at “momming” and teaching valuable life lessons. But teaching the kids the technical stuff – I could fail at. It’s overwhelming and it’s scary. But we adapt. As humans, we are resilient and will adapt.
These days you’ll find me hanging out with my sister in law who is “stuck” with us indefinately, at night we color & drink white claw lol and during the day we are home schooling and hanging out with the kids. I don’t know what the future has in store for the world, or for us in particularly but we will take advantage of the time we have for when this is all over, we may not have this time ever again. Our kids are growing, so quickly and we should be grateful though circumstances are grim, for these moments. And in the meantime, we ALL need to be practicing social distancing and living under these new, hopefully temporary laws. We will never flatten the curve if people are still going out to hang out with friends, to see family, photograph events (this is a big one). We need to take it seriously. While it may not be serious for you – it could be for me and my family. Protect yourself, protect your grandparents, and use your heart and protect even those you don’t know.
Enjoy some photos from our quarantine days. I’ll post every few days.